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Tears in Heaven

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven

Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I’ll find my way, through night and day
Cause I know I just can’t stay
Here in heaven

Time can bring you down
Time can bend your knee
Time can break your heart
Have you begging please
Begging please

(instrumental)

Beyond the door
There’s peace I’m sure.
And I know there’ll be no more…
Tears in heaven

Would you know my name
If I saw you in heaven
Will it be the same
If I saw you in heaven
I must be strong, and carry on
Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven

Cause I know I don’t belong
Here in heaven

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After taking 2 cups of coffee a day..



Amidst all Odds

The Book of Job is one of the Greatest testimony of how God long for our Obedience and Sincerity…

All the while, before this great revelation came to the midst of God’s people,

The belief of getting a reward for our obedience and punishment for our sins drive our lives.

Amidst all odds Job stands out for God and worship Him..

I will try to leave my life like Job.

99% is not complete

God allows me to learn many things on my own  however  it may be,

though most of the time the hard way.

God will never break a promise.

He doesn’t leave me at all.

All this years I’ve been  trying to escape from him.

But still His shadows  will creep at a random time and will sway  me off my feet.

I have never been away from him

though I always  reject His comfort.

He who watches me will never sleep nor slumber

The first time He gave me Brenda for a slap

Then aTe Shienna for a pinch

And now,  that  I am detached from the church

He gave me Ionee for a warm hug

Asking me to seek  Him.

Asking me to look for that 1% that is lost

Better to leave the 99 that makes you incomplete

To look for that missing part

Who treats me number 1 in His heart.

Ondoy’s Wrath

Typhoon Ondoys wrath

Typhoon Ondoy's wrath

Ondoy Reminded us that everything is temporary.
It reminded the Filipinos that nothing in this world is indestructable. In a snap everything you own and make you busy most of the time will be snatched by the wind,

Ondoy Reminded us that everything is temporary.

It reminded the Filipinos that nothing in this world is indestructible.

In a snap everything you own and make you busy may be snatched from you.

One thing that We should hold on to, is what God had already promised to us.

Never again He will cover the earth with His great flood

.As Gods Covenant to all mankind

This is everyones wake up call.

Fireproof life

I am doing this thing because I want to be a testimony of How Good God is to all of us.
I have been so selfish.. Ruined by the temporary happiness that comes into my life, whether temptation and self ruled stuffs  it may be.
I needed someone to push me. I needed a jerk.
But my Master Gave me not a slap. But a warm embrace that makes my eyes wet for a couple of hours tonight.
Fireproof is not just a movie to me, though i was convinced to watch this a while a go, just to take a break from my academic woes..
If there is only one thing that i want everyone to take grasp on tonight and for the rest of their lives.. That is to love God.
Everything else will Follow i can tell you.
Its  pretty amazing that i can now write thoughts about who God is and How He is, because it is not just me.. It is the Holy Spirit who guides every finger on my keyboard tonight to share whatever kindness God can draw to all of us.
One line that captures my heart was
“Im not afraid to die, Because I know where I am going…” Its been a long time since I learned a couple of things about who God is.. and then I stopped. Believing that I indeed graduated this learning and knowing who God is, where in fact i just graduated from Prep,and now this continuing journey of this life seemed not to be founded well.. Because I just finished learning to identify things and colors  as analogous to a preschooler, incomparable to what life demands us to know.
I thought it was sufficient.. I thought it was already fireproof but then, some little things came up and it ruins everything.. Its like a building who continuously being padded with additional floors but then the foundation is’nt really enough to support the whole thing.
same is true with life.. We should continue to know God more and more just as we learn some people here on Earth you are called in to be one. After prep, elementary principle should follow, then high school, college. and it doesnt end up there… there should be a masteral, doctoral post doctoral.. and as we retire from studying more about God. life has its lessons, and testings for us to be just like Him.
God cannot make use of me,If i havent yet founded with truth and faith.
But even if we are just about to enter the elementary learnings?  We are indeed capable because we are fueled by Gods Holy Spirit.
We cannot measure the pain incurred by someone to us, much more of billions of people who still rejects and hate God.
Perfect love was well demonstrated in the cross. What more can we ask for? Blessings, talents Gifts, prosperity, Victory in life?? All of things He has given to us. But God only wants us to Love Him.
Because If we do.
Obedience will came into action..
Sincerity..
Trust
Faith
.
.
.
Teach me to obey you
though i know its hard for me to do it alone..
Help me.
Love

God is Love

I am doing this thing because I want to be a testimony of How Good God is to all of us.
I have been so selfish.. Ruined by the temporary happiness that comes into my life, whether temptation and self ruled stuffs  it may be.
I needed someone to push me. I needed a jerk.
But my Master Gave me not a slap. But a warm embrace that makes my eyes wet for a couple of hours tonight.
Fireproof is not just a movie to me, though i was convinced to watch this a while a go, just to take a break from my academic woes..
If there is only one thing that i want everyone to take grasp on tonight and for the rest of their lives..

That is to Love God.
Everything else will follow, i can tell you.
Its  pretty amazing that i can now write thoughts about who God is and How He is working on our lives, because it is not just me.. It is the Holy Spirit who guides every finger on my keyboard tonight to share whatever kindness God can draw to all of us.
One line that captures my heart was
“Im not afraid to die, Because I know where I am going…”
Its been a long time since I learned a couple of things about who God is.. and then I stopped.
Believing that I indeed graduated this learning and knowing who God is, where in fact i just graduated from Prep,and now this continuing journey of this life seemed not to be founded well..
Because I just finished learning to identify things and colors  as analogous to a preschooler, incomparable to what life demands us to know.
I thought it was sufficient.. I thought it was already fireproof but then, some little things came up and it ruins everything.. Its like a building who continuously being padded up with additional floors but then the foundation is’nt really enough to support the whole thing.
Same is true with life.. We should continue to know God more and more just as we learn some people here on Earth you are called in to be one. After prep, elementary principle should follow, then high school, college. and it doesnt end up there… there should be a masteral, doctoral post doctoral.. and as we ‘retire’ from studying more about God.
Life has its lessons, and testings for us to be just like Him, to be just like Jesus.
God cannot make use of me,If I haven’t yet founded with truth and faith.
But even if we are just about to enter the elementary learnings?  We are indeed capable because we are fueled by Gods Holy Spirit.
We cannot measure the pain incurred by someone to us, much more of the  billions of people who still rejects and hate God.
Perfect love was well demonstrated in the cross. What more can we ask for?
Blessings, talents Gifts, prosperity, Victory in life?? All of things He has given to us. But God only wants us to Love Him.
Because If we do.
Obedience will came into action..
Sincerity..
Trust
Faith
.
.
.
Teach me to obey you
though i know its hard for me to do it alone..
Help me. Can’t do this alone.

I just needed a sudden Jerk

As I was reading my previous journals..

I was reminded of How God rose me up from each grave I am in..

Again I  received a sudden jerk from my Master and reminded that I am indeed His Princess and No one would ever hurt me, as long as I am with Him.

If I could only See all things to His perspective.

Nothing in this world is absolutely impossible. As I put everything in my hands to His.

Lately fear keeps on recurring into my system and doubt suddenly comes with disobedience.

But then God who is always in control, is the one making a way for me to come back.

I volunteered to man the booth during the Victory weekend on QC. That was refreshing, I felt again the sudden rush of  the Holy Spirit and how He  moved me to see Visions like rain and lightnings..

Amazing though, that was a sunny Saturday morning but the rain and lightning i have seen from that vision was indeed the situation I am in, in the afternoon.

God was inevitably Magestic !! Can shame all for His Glory.

For indeed He, at the end of the day still sits on the thrown of each of his children’s life.

and I am very thankful for that, For if he doesnt care about me.

I would have been lost for a long time…

I would have been died for all the sins I have incurred.

I would have not influenced another great woman’s life, or another friends life.

I bask in your Glory God!!!

…..

My Spiritual walk with Him, How was it?

If  someone would ask me right now..

“How was your Spiritual life going?”

I would certainly  feel disgusted with myself.

Its been a while  since I realized that something great is missing in my life and that is God, I put him aside..

Along wih other people who helped me to grow with Him

I put him under the pressure of my academic requirements,

I put him under every thing i can find as an excuse..

Bad doyi, I put him under a certain person, who comes to be unexpectedly ruled my life.

Not only once that i waked up in the morning with a corrupted mind, to many things come in a rush trying to eat up the thoughts that i need to pray before getting up on bed.

Nights are quite, as ever before.. Conversations are left unfinished before i noticed ive been dreaming…

I have been shaken by all the challenges, Ruined by the storms. Embellished by the thought that I still go to church during sundays. I am no longer living as a christian. I am not worthy to be called one.

I am as filthy as before. I cursed,  I’m gossiping around, I’ve been imagining somethings I am not used to before.

I am damaged.

I do not blame anybody for this cause.

I am responsible for any of my act, on hold of every word coming out of my mouth.

I cannot defend my faith, its terrible as it may seem, but i really find myself not worthy to be accepted by God.

And again, for the nth time,

God…

Reformat my heart, Give me again a new heart that is open to hear your word,

ur daughter as  fired up as before..

Give me a new heart that is willing and open to understand the reality of this world.

:((

I love you God!!

Sagittarian Focus

When everything seems to die down..

Keep your eyes Focused. Guard your heart, Live every moment with joy.

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